Heartbroken

I am devastated. Ryan and I planned to register for our half marathon at the end of December. So yesterday we logged on to the website to register and it was FULL. Immediately my heart sank. I clicked around on the website trying to find another way (as if that were possible). Then what did I do...I started to cry. First, they were quite little tears that I tried to hide from Ryan. Then they were big, fat sobbing tears. I said to Ryan, "Look at me. I'm crying over running, over wanting to run and not being able to." I never thought that would have been possible. But I have put in so much work training for this half marathon. I was really going to do it. I was committed.

So we proceeded to look at the website some more. The full marathon was still open, but there is no way we would be ready to run 26.2 miles. The training for that is already in double digit miles. Then we looked at the local running clubs website for a chance that there would be another half marathon at around the same time. Well there is one at the end of February, but all the logistics look pretty bad. It is a hilly route and there is a time limit of 2.5 hours. My goal was to finish under 3 hours, but I'm not confident enough to say I would be able to keep up my 12 min/mile pace for 13.1 miles. So I'm not feeling confident for that half marathon...so now what....

I think the plan will be to just keep training for a half marathon as if we were going to run in March. I guess I can keep looking at the Shamrock website each day to see if there are any changes. I'm really bummed, but I've put in a lot of effort so I'm not going to give up.